Fillerup, Michael. Beyond the River. Salt Lake City: Signature Books, 1995.
Forty-one year old Jon Reeves, burdened with family and financial obligations, church callings. and too many unfulfilled dreams, is in the throes of a mid-life crisis, something Mormons in good standing aren’t necessarily supposed to have. Instead of writing the Great American Novel, he’s toiling away at educational grants in the basement of the high school where he used to teach–not to mention that fact that his teenaged daughter is questioning her faith, his son is being traumatized by a bully, and his youngest lives with a life-threatening illness. Jon, in his words has been so “snarly” to his wife, Natalie, lately that his “absence will be a reprieve.” An impromptu solo trip to the Sacramento Valley river of his youth incites a flood of memories: the brilliant and tragic high school girl who compelled him to be a writer, his struggles football, his humbling mission to Mexico, his domineering father, his time at BYU where he meets and marries Natalie, who seems to know exactly what she wants from life. At the river, Jon wrestles the demons from his past, yells at God, and finds the courage to return to his life and make it better than it is.
Key Quotes: Jon Reeves to his Bishop: “‘Why would I want to become like God? Myriads of beings and so many kids they’d have to wear name tags for me to keep them straight. I can’t even handle the three I have. Kingdoms, dominions, world without number . . . It sounds like a great big administrative headache'” (172).
“What’s their point! All of this fasting and praying and handshaking and right-hand-raising and scripture searching, tithe-paying, pew sitting, head-nodding, yes Bishop Finley, no Bishop Finley . . . We do all these things, but it doesn’t do any good–doesn’t do me any good” (144).
What Makes it Marginal: An ease and openness with metaphysical doubt; Jon, a member of the bishopric, confesses his problems with deep Mormon doctrine to the bishop; scenes of temptation and nearly succumbing to temptation; many moments of questioning and doubt; as a full-time missionary, Jon draws a quasi-erotic rendering of a young investigator in his journal; Jon strips off his temple garments in a stifling mountain cabin with a twinge of guilt.
What Makes it Mormonal: Family members take their church callings seriously, the intimacy and ease of the conversations with God, conventional faith-affirming missionary moments.
My Two Cents: Told mostly in internal monologue and taking a tone of near desperation, Michael Fillerup may have written the first Mormon complaint novel that comes from a place of belief. Honest and frank about how strict adherence to a faith can, at times, hinder more help, and in spite the cliché of finding oneself by losing oneself (and in nature–another easy trope), I found it affecting.